For the past 3 + years, I have done a lot of work – on myself, but not by myself. I was talking to a girlfriend after a yoga class and she asked me, “What have you been up to?” Looking back, I believe it took me about a minute to answer that question. A.Full.Minute! Besides going to yoga and going to work, I couldn’t come up with anything else. After sitting with that question and becoming willing to get moving, I was ready. At the time, I had no idea the ride that I was about to go on and that the ride would have no end. If one is truly willing to change (which I was) then you don’t buy one ticket – you buy the lifetime pass. At least, I did.

A mentor and friend of mine invited me to be a part of a course that she was teaching. The course is called Creative Insight Journey (CIJ) and it held up to its name. It was creative and I went on a journey. At one of the first few classes, I stated something along the lines of, “I want to be able to express myself honestly and I want to make sure that what is said here stays here.” It was for my own protection. I was about to get honest and real and I didn’t want that honesty and realness to go any further than us. In hindsight, that was when I decided I was all in. Not changing was not an option for me. And it was all because of a gremlin. A gremlin named, Karl. Yes, that was the name I gave to my inner critic. From the get-go, we were encouraged to journal; and journal, I did. It was through writing and talking out loud, that I began to see the patterns of my negative self-talk and how my insecurities led me down many, many dead end roads. For years, Karl has been renting space in my head. The problem was I needed the space back, and Karl had to go.

Soon after that course ended, I began to meet with a friend every week. She is a woman that I wanted to get to know better, so I asked her for help. What began with having hot tea in her backyard garden, has grown into a friendship based on trust, faith, enlightenment and love. She has held my hand throughout my self-awareness discovery – encouraging and empowering me every single step of the way. Yes, for me it took someone who was willing to guide me, face the demons of my past, and forgive myself for me to see my gifts, my potential, my adult life’s purpose and to form a new and beautiful relationship with God. She showed up for me. I showed up for her. We showed up for God. When you surround yourself with others who want to see you grow and give you all the space and time that you need; the possibilities are endless. I found myself attending conferences, workshops and spiritual retreats. I wanted more. I wanted to write. This is how my blog came together. By being uplifted by others and putting my inner critic in a permanent timeout, I began to write. I begin to like what I wrote. I began to publish it. I have no attachments to what will happen as a result of my discovery; but I am guaranteed satisfaction within, as long as I follow my heart and listen to my voice.

Ask yourself each day, How Can I Be of Service to Others? How Can I Help?

I spent the afternoon with my Mom yesterday. When I walked into her room, her beautiful blue eyes lit up. I was greeted with a, “Hi sweetie, I’m so glad you’re here.” Her presence and those few simple, sincere words were exactly what I needed to hear. She is the all that is good in the world. We played trivia, laughed, held hands, laughed, and listened to music. I believe that music is a great healer. There is something about music that resonates with each of us. I looked around the room and everyone had a smile on their face – a glisten in their eye. It took them back to a place and time that was good. I put my head on my mom’s shoulder and thought how lucky I was to have her. Her love. Her light. Her.

I hope that if you are renting valuable time and space to anyone or anything that makes you feel heavy, insecure or unloved that you look at the price that your mind, body and soul are paying to have this person, place, or thing in your life. No more discounts. No more installments. Pray and let it go. Feel light. Feel loved. Feel free.

I write about experiences and awareness that I have had in my life. Many things are being revealed to me and I am excited to share them with you. It is my belief that we are all just walking each other home and I am willing to hold your hand through the process.

On the first page of my website, is my contact information. I would love to hear about your experience, strength and hope with a situation or situations that you thought you would never be able to get through, but did!

Purely,

Kim

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